Tuesday, June 28, 2011

One Year Later

Here I am, one year later and once again amazed at how God works. A few months after Paceler's birth as I was completely sleep deprived and ready to crumble, my mom stumbled upon a blog and shared with me. This super trendy, high on life mama with one precious little girl gave birth to her second daughter who unexpectedly has an extra chromosome. Sweet Nella was born with Down Syndrome and her mama blogged about that experience and continues to document their life in an artistic, breathtaking way.






(Picture by Kelle Hampton)



For many this blog is too much, overwhelming and unrealistic but quite the opposite for me. I became inspired, encouraged and challenged to live out every moment making unforgettable memories. As I continued reading, diving deeper into a strangers life a wave of jealousy hit me hard. She has an outstanding group of friends, some that gather just for playdates, some she catches up with at the park and others she does every day life with. They've picked her up, shown her the positive when she couldn't find it and love her simply for her.












I wanted that. I've always wanted that. A group of mamas sharing stories, challenges, asking questions and supporting each other. Kids playing together, learning to share, discovering what it means to be a friend, have a friend and love a friend. One year ago I met a good friend of mine for lunch. We don't see each other as much as I would like but when we do God uses that time, uses her to mentor me, speak to me. As I whined on and on about how wonderful this blog mom had it with her group of besties, girls she can count on and how I longed for this so badly my friend touched my hand gently. She said, "you can have this, pray hard, believe that God wants this for you and make it happen. Start a playgroup. Get to know other moms, pray for those people, open yourself up to these moms and trust them."











Wow, one year later I sit on this same white couch with that same lump in my throat and eyes welling up with tears. One year later I am part of a fantastic playgroup that my kids and I adore. One year later I have met new people whom I love. One year later I continue to be inspired and pray to inspire others. One year later my family is still the best, the ones I must have to survive. One year later I have a few close friends whom I need in my life, they have been essential to my mamahood, my every day life and I am thankful.











One year later I am amazed, God is Good.

2 comments:

  1. beautiful, Nicole! I am so glad you have found what your heart has been longing for. God IS good!

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  2. Great! now I have to wipe the tears from my eyes and get this day started! Thanks for the post NIcole! I am so proud of you! God is good!

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